heart broken

hihi...today i was so heark broken...
just because his so call twins never go study...
he then also never go study...
lucky i never wait for them to eat.
if not i maybe would have faint...
they would never know how many hour i have wait for them...
just a few sms and a sorry for all those hour and starving till now?
after eating lunch...i get hungry again.and are waiting for them...
yet they never turn up...and just because that...it really make me think that
am i his gf or is that twin is his gf?
to him...who are more important?
he or me?
those who know me will know who am i saying...
i really can't stand it...
but can't bring myself to break up with him...
his has already said that he treat him as his twins.
and i am his gf...
but?is he really care about me?
nobody ever know that i cry in the bath room while bathing.
not even my family or my friend know that i cry...
i really scare that he will leave me.
who will know?i also wonder...
it so scary being alone...
what can i do now.
only to hope that he will know his own mistake,
before i make a regretful choice that will make me reget...